Dear Solider,
Even though we don’t speak anymore, I want to wish that you’re safe. You go to basic on my birthday, Feb. 22. Be safe when you are deployed. My future husband will be joining you in a few years.
Be Safe,
A.
My Solider,
You want to date her. You want me to give your permission. But you don’t know what you’re asking for. You’re asking me to put my happiness, my whole world in her hands. You’re asking me to suffer as I watch you and her everyday the same way I did when you were with K. But you still want me to wait for you while your gone. You still want to introduce me to your family as your sorta kinda girlfriend on Thanksgiving… Basically this is a no win situation for me, and you want me to say yes. You have no idea what you’re asking me. You have no idea how much you’re hurting me. And it hurts me even more to say that I’ll probably give into you, because thats just how much I’d do anything for you.
I love you, don’t you get that?
Princess.
My Solider,
What ever it was that had changed, that I was so upset about it gone. I’m glad, it feels much better now. I know we don’t know where we stand, and to be honest baby we don’t make much sense, and I know you know that. We’re not offically dating, yet we act like we are. When you leave, you want me to wait for you-even though we aren’t dating. But we’re definitly more than just friends, or even friends with benefits. What are we baby? We don’t know. And even though we make no sense at all, I’m still here. That should tell you something.
Love,
Princess
My Solider,
What changed? What is it that is changing? I can feel that it’s different between us. Something is happening, something is changing very fast, it’s out of my control. I can’t even see it it’s spinning out so fast, but I sure can feel it.
What’s happening?
Princess.
My Solider,
Something is happening between us and I’m not sure what it is, but it worries me GREATLY.
What’s going on?
-Princess.
My Soldier,
Last night you were with me again. I’m glad I had you around when I had a little mental break down. You made it all better. You make everything better. And if I have my way, you’ll see me again tomorrow before I have to go out of town. Oh how I wish I could take you with me. Otherwise, I’d be with you all weekend. Today while I was at competition, I was so lonely. I almost felt like a part of me was kinda missing. But it was not too bad, I had your chain even though I’m not supposed to wear it when I’m in uniform. But that’s okay, no one knew. No one but me, and you. I can still see your face when you saw me today. You were so happy, like you missed me to death. Which is understandable, I wasn’t able to see you before the bell, I was gone all day so no Hornet Block or Lunch with you. But it’s okay. You congratulated me on our first place win and you hugged me. You did miss me didn’t you? I sure missed the hell out of you.
I’m really hoping you let me keep your chain when you leave for Basic. Because you are truely one of the only things if not the only thing in my life that has ever gone right. You’re too good to be true, like a perfect dream that seems so freaking real. When you’re with me I see you, I smell your collgne, I feel your touch, I taste your kiss, and I hear your voice, all proof that you are in fact real and not just a dream that my mind has rewarded me with. But when you go, it’s a different story. My mind starts to question, especially since you don’t have your phone anymore so I can’t text you after school. All I have is your chain. That’s the only evidence that I have that you are actually a living, breathing, real person. You’re just too good to be true. And you know what they say, All Good Things Must End…. That will be my December; the ending of all good things.
I love you,
Princess.
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